Time to Rant

This week has taught me a couple of things, if you feel like it's time for a change and you keep coming back to the same conclussion of what you feel you need to change than you need to go with it and just do it. I sort of blew up at a co woker this week which pushed me to make a decission to do something I've been feeling I needed to do for a while. It's really not easy to stand up to people, for me it's the hardest thing to do but this week pushed me to start doing it and to take action. I feel like people push and push and push until you just snap and once the bitch in you comes out people think you're the horrible one, but you're not sometimes you just have to be a bitch in order to make it in this world I guess. I'm learning more everyday that it's not necessary to please or make nice with everyone or even anyone, sometimes being friendless especially at your work place is fine, It seems like the more friends you have at work the more drama is created. I guess the saying you shouldn't mix business with pleasure is starting to become more relavent to me. Now don't get me wrong do I wish I could make friends at work yes I mean we spend 60% of our life at work of coarse I want fun people to be around and talk to and have fun with and be able to go out with on the weekends, but it seems like every person I've tried to make friends with that I also work with they don't stay your friend for very long than you sit there and regret all the personal stuff you shared cuz than you realize how much you shouldn't trust them. So I don't know the moral of the story is I think I need to be more carefull who I associate with be less trusting and make people work for my trust, stop sharing personal stuff with people I don't know too well, and stop caring if people at work like me because at the end of the day it's work you go there to make money to pay bills and you need to start asking yourself do I really care what these ass holes think of me anyways? If peoiple don't like the best work you can do that's their fault not yours, as long as you know you've tried and done the best you can do than honestly fuck everyone else let them be haters obviously they're jealous that you succeeded when they rooted for you to fail. At the end of the day it's not your coleagues who matter anyways, it's your family and your friends your real friends who root for you to succeed and support you. End of rant for today stay tuned though I might need to do more later.